I can't believe that I have neglected to post a blog since July. I can say that I have drafted many entries in my head. I have gone over many topics, discarded a LOT of stories to protect the guilty, and gotten up so many mornings with the intention to write something, anything on my poor lonely blog.
But.... like much of my life right now, I never seemed to get to it. I often feel like I am slogging through syrup. Like every task is harder and takes longer than it should. Aside from the health issues that I am still dealing with, the medicine I have to take has some side effects. All of it combined leads to good days, and not so good days. Then the not so good days lead to tons of guilt about what didn't get done that day. I feel so much guilt, all the time, I'd swear there has to be some Jewish blood somewhere back in our history.
On a good note, Amanda got her first "big girl" job, ironically as a 911 dispatcher. I am very proud. Ray and I counted and from my grandfather through to her, we have had 10 different badges in our family. I wish my dad and Pawpaw could see that. But I know they can. Last week we went to see two wedding venues and have started planning the wedding. Herding cats comes to mind.......LOL.
Also last week, we ordered Sarah's graduation invitations, cap, gown, etc. She has been on the A-B Honor Roll this year and is actually enjoying it. Figures that she'd find her groove in the last stretch. She had a choir concert last night that was SO GOOD. I am a huge sap, and I only got teary once. Seriously. I cry at ALL these kids performances. Any video has me in the background sniffing and snorting. Check out my YouTube channel. You'ii see.
Emily is Em. she's 14. No other comment. Just kidding. She's a sweetheart, taller than me (duh), with curly hair like the goat on FB. She is OBSESSED with Pentatonix.
So anyway, that's whats been up with me. Got a few things on the horizon, and I totally intend to blog it!
Less guilt. More happiness. I find tha, for me, when I shame myself for not writing, it pushes me further away from writing. I feel better when I write, so I try not to make it a chore, and let it happen when it happens. Wedding plans are exciting! Can't wait to hear more!
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